It's late. Tomorrow will be crazy with presentations and meetings and then prep for more presentations but I breath a sigh of relief here at 11:04pm. A project that has been mine for the last 2 and a half months is being passed on. I am sitting on the floor of my tiny apartment, laptop tethered to printer as the pages pile on the collector. I wasn't sure it was going to see this stage, I am not sure it is perfect, in fact I am sure it is not perfect but I am happy with the work and that is something that is not always easy to say. As the sheets of white paper keep coming, layering on top of one another I can feel the apprehension flow from my shoulders, the tension is lessening quickly. I am so proud of my work.
This is a sweet feeling at the end of a long day. I have been a ball of nerves lately, feeling there may be more on my plate than I can accomplish, feeling like my world is in flux and I am not sure where to stand for fear of falling over. I am lucky though. I have what ever person needs, someone who makes them feel like, in the midst of chaos, they are not crazy. It came as a stark realization this evening as I was chatting with my mum on the phone as I walked through the rain to my car. I was recounting my day and my conversations about trying to find an internship and what my other options may be available. She immediately saw it, " Julia," she said " you are lucky to have someone who makes you feel sane in this crazy time, you are lucky to have someone who listens when it matters". She was so right. Everyone needs that person who goes along with the wild ideas, a partner in crime whether a sibling, parent, friend or otherwise that sees the value where you see it, even if no one else does. This is key in this time where I feel so unsettled. I have an amazing group of people in my life who always seem to step up and step in when I need them most.
Tonight I will rest easy.
This is a sweet feeling at the end of a long day. I have been a ball of nerves lately, feeling there may be more on my plate than I can accomplish, feeling like my world is in flux and I am not sure where to stand for fear of falling over. I am lucky though. I have what ever person needs, someone who makes them feel like, in the midst of chaos, they are not crazy. It came as a stark realization this evening as I was chatting with my mum on the phone as I walked through the rain to my car. I was recounting my day and my conversations about trying to find an internship and what my other options may be available. She immediately saw it, " Julia," she said " you are lucky to have someone who makes you feel sane in this crazy time, you are lucky to have someone who listens when it matters". She was so right. Everyone needs that person who goes along with the wild ideas, a partner in crime whether a sibling, parent, friend or otherwise that sees the value where you see it, even if no one else does. This is key in this time where I feel so unsettled. I have an amazing group of people in my life who always seem to step up and step in when I need them most.
Tonight I will rest easy.
