Thursday, April 25, 2013

Fire Starter

There is a place of possibility that I only fall into on occasion. It feels like stress, exhaustion, the flu, and a lack of satisfaction of the status quo. It feels primal and empty. It is a place of vacuum waiting to be filled with the next step. It is a place of beginnings where there is no energy or necessity in holding on to what was... or even what its. As tough as this place can feel it usually marks the start of something beautiful. Times like these make it clear where I am going with my life and what I want out of it.

Walking to work the past few days I have been reminded of something my 13 year old self was told by a 16 year old friend. "Never go into battle without your weapon" she said, when I had forgot my riding crop while training a particularly troublesome pony one afternoon. Never go without the tools you need, if you can get your hands on them, into what you know will not be easy. While this, as of late, has been directly referring to the coffee I need to keep me on my game at the office, it transfers into all aspects of my life during this time of possibility. Taking the next step means brining forward what I know will make me successful, what I know will provide me with what I need to make it happen. Coincidently I was getting just that coffee this morning and my barista reminded me of something that resonated with me for the rest of the day that to some extent we are all responsible (or should be) for "creating opportunities for people to feel successful, happy and fulfilled". In the context of my work these days this, recruiting and basically people in general, is crucial, in the context of being a human and a future entrepreneur, this is what I need to remember every day.

Finally, part of the vacuum is being filled with a book I JUST started reading. The Fire Starter Sessions is amazing and truly what I need right now. Danielle Laporte is a genius and one of the most candid and funny writers I have read in a long time. I am just a few chapters in but I see this shaping how I think going forward. I guess all in all my body and life are reminding me that while this feels exhausting and hard right now it is the start of something great, and that's all that matters.

Much love.